Life Update

Hey guys,
Welcome back.

Long time no talk right? I haven’t been on here in about a week and a half. Let me get into why.

Lately, the seasonal depression deal has been hitting me hard. I just want it to be warm and sunny. I wanna be about to go outside without wearing 200 pounds of clothes just to keep from going numb.

Also, my anxiety has been off the charts high. It’s been a 24/7 deal for going on 7 days. It doesn’t show signs of stopping either. It’s been a big reason for me not being active on here, as well as most of my social media. I’m very sorry. I feel like I’m letting you all down.

Along with my anxiety getting very bad, my immune system has started to slow down. I’ve been feeling sick the past few days. I’ve been dizzy, lightheaded, I lost my appetite, my muscles ache, and I’ve lost pretty much all motivation.

But here I am, trying my hardest to make sure you all know I’m still here, I’m alive and I promise once I get better there will be amazing content out. I’ve been working on a new series for awhile now and the second I feel better it will be going up.

I hope you all understand my need for taking a short break. I didn’t want to write something that wasn’t 100% full effort. I’ll be back very soon.


Seasonal Depression

Seasonal Depression, also known as Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): a type of depression that’s related to changes in seasons — SAD begins and ends at about the same times every year. If you’re like most people with SAD, your symptoms start in the fall and continue into the winter months, sapping your energy and making you feel moody.

Thank you Google. What would I do without you?

Seasonal Depression day and night

When I was in high school, I was in group counseling with a few other girls who had similar “problems” as me. We called it “Girls Group” to make us feel a little better about ourselves. I was 16 when I figured out I had seasonal depression. I would always wonder why I got really sad during the fall/winter. My grades would drop, I would be in a crappy mood and I would constantly be sad.

All my life it was that way. I thought it was normal to feel that way. It is, but not continuously for four months until Spring came. My parents, teachers, and even my one friend would notice a difference in me. I would go from always being energetic and wanting to do things to sleeping all the time and never leaving my house. Any motivation I had to do anything left my mind and it felt like the life was sucked out of me. I became a walking zombie from November until March.

Guess what. It’s December.

 “Hello depression, lovely to see you again,” said nobody. 

Seasonal Depression meme

Now that I’m not in school or anything, it hasn’t been too bad. This is the second year of dealing with it without being in school. I can handle it better because I don’t have to stress myself out so much, but now I can lock myself away for days at a time. Which isn’t much better.

Seasonal Depression cartoon.jpg

I know I like to joke around on here and make fun of myself, but out of all seriousness, this is something I do suffer from. And it gives me a pretty hard time around this time of year. This is something I’m very insecure about and have a hard time opening up about. But having a platform like this I feel like I need to talk about it not just so people know about me, but they know they aren’t alone. There’s others out there and there’s help available. I am one of the people who don’t have it extremely bad, but others can have it quite worse than me.
So I’m asking all of you, if you know somebody who seems depressed or is having anxiety, sit down with them or text them. A simple “Hey”, or “How are you today?”, can go a long way and change the outlook on somebody’s day. You could be the reason somebody doesn’t commit suicide that day. Sometimes you don’t know everything a person is going through. You don’t know what it’s like to walk in their shoes. So BE KIND to everybody you see.  💙

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Life Update.


I haven’t blogged all week and this post is to tell you why. My life is a shit show.

I’ll start with this. I’m sick. I went from having tonsillitis to getting bronchitis. I can’t go more than two minutes without coughing up a lung. It’s gotten to be very annoying and I don’t know how much more of it I can deal with. I keep waking up in the middle of the night coughing and it’s NOT okay.

Next, my anxiety is supper high. I swear I’m going bald. My hair is falling out and it’s a mess. I have acne and I feel like a potato. I’m defiantly living my best life.

This week was also Thanksgiving so I was pretty busy eating and spending time with my family. The day before Thanksgiving was Andrew’s 19th birthday. (He’s old as hell).  

Now that I’ve taken a week to gather myself and gain 30 pounds of pure turkey and stuffing, I’m feeling much better. So now I’m back and better than ever… somewhat. But I’m managing.

There’s a little life update. I’ll be back on Monday 💙

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