Awhile ago, I was reading through some of my followers blogs and I noticed this one girl. She was going through a breakup similar to what I was going through. Then I started thinking there could be others out there who are going through the same thing. Getting out of a toxic relationship. Today, I’m going to talk about my experience with getting out of a toxic relationship.
The first month was hard. By hard, I mean I didn’t know what to do with myself anymore. For a solid 3 days I stayed in my room. I didn’t leave my bed. I didn’t eat. My appetite was gone. Every time I thought about eating I would feel sick. If I did eat I would feel like throwing up. I wouldn’t respond to any texts. My friends were constantly blowing up my phone trying to check up on me. I didn’t have the heart to respond and tell everybody what happened. I wanted to tell everybody when I was ready, and tell everyone at once so I didn’t have to tell the story 300 times. Once was enough. It’s like I lost all motivation for everything.
My hair started falling out. Worse than it normally does. Carly came over and washed and combed out my hair for me because I didn’t have the heart to do it. She didn’t leave my house for 3 days to make sure I was alright. She’s the greatest thing that ever happened to me.
My acne started to get really bad because I was so depressed. Also I wasn’t giving my body the nutrition and attention it needed to be healthy. I started losing a lot of weight. I fell to a dangerous weight and I couldn’t stand up without getting dizzy and falling back over. A few times I even fainted. I was heading down a bad road.
About a week after the breakup, I reached out to one of my friends. It was the best decision I made. I talked to him and ended up telling him everything. Ever since then, I’ve slowly started returning to my happy self. During that month I gradually started going out with friends again. I had the best Valentine’s Day dates ever. I have the greatest friends in the entire universe.
I still had my bad days, but the good days were coming around more often than the bad.
The good days kept coming and coming. I was happy almost all the time. I’m more carefree than I’ve ever been. My anxiety wasn’t as bad and my spirit felt free. My appetite came back and I was hungrier than ever. I’m on my way back to a semi healthy weight. I wasn’t at a healthy weight to start off with, but we’re getting there.
My acne has been much better. I just need to stop drinking so much soda and coffee now and my face will be flawless. I go out with my friends now all the time.
I even finally grew a pair of balls and started my YouTube channel. (Go check it out, link will be below). I’m doing things I never thought I would do. I’ve gotten over so many fears and I feel like a completely different person.
Everybody told me it would just take time. I didn’t believe them, but they were right. Time heals all wounds.
For any of you out there going through a break up, or a hard time. I want you to remember that time does heal things. It will get easier over time. Keep your head up because I know you can do this.
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