I used to love being alone with my thoughts. I loved sitting in my room, listening to music, writing out all my feelings. Now my thoughts haunt me. The pages of what used to be filled with good vibes is now filled with my negative never ending thoughts.
I can’t stand the loneliness anymore. I force myself to constantly surround myself with my friends and family. If I’m not alone, I can’t listen to my thoughts. I can easily ignore them. The perfect distraction.
Until it’s 4 in the morning and everyone is sleeping. Where do I go now?
My thoughts slowly start creeping into my mind. I try my hardest to ignore it. Minutes go by and I want to give up.
I let my thoughts surround me until I’m an emotional wreck. I let the tears fall. I let it all out. I’m vulnerable now. I think I’m going to lose myself.
Then I glance up and see sunlight.
I made it.