Seasonal Depression, also known as Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): a type of depression that’s related to changes in seasons — SAD begins and ends at about the same times every year. If you’re like most people with SAD, your symptoms start in the fall and continue into the winter months, sapping your energy and making you feel moody.
Thank you Google. What would I do without you?
When I was in high school, I was in group counseling with a few other girls who had similar “problems” as me. We called it “Girls Group” to make us feel a little better about ourselves. I was 16 when I figured out I had seasonal depression. I would always wonder why I got really sad during the fall/winter. My grades would drop, I would be in a crappy mood and I would constantly be sad.
All my life it was that way. I thought it was normal to feel that way. It is, but not continuously for four months until Spring came. My parents, teachers, and even my one friend would notice a difference in me. I would go from always being energetic and wanting to do things to sleeping all the time and never leaving my house. Any motivation I had to do anything left my mind and it felt like the life was sucked out of me. I became a walking zombie from November until March.
Guess what. It’s December.
“Hello depression, lovely to see you again,” said nobody.
Now that I’m not in school or anything, it hasn’t been too bad. This is the second year of dealing with it without being in school. I can handle it better because I don’t have to stress myself out so much, but now I can lock myself away for days at a time. Which isn’t much better.
I know I like to joke around on here and make fun of myself, but out of all seriousness, this is something I do suffer from. And it gives me a pretty hard time around this time of year. This is something I’m very insecure about and have a hard time opening up about. But having a platform like this I feel like I need to talk about it not just so people know about me, but they know they aren’t alone. There’s others out there and there’s help available. I am one of the people who don’t have it extremely bad, but others can have it quite worse than me.
So I’m asking all of you, if you know somebody who seems depressed or is having anxiety, sit down with them or text them. A simple “Hey”, or “How are you today?”, can go a long way and change the outlook on somebody’s day. You could be the reason somebody doesn’t commit suicide that day. Sometimes you don’t know everything a person is going through. You don’t know what it’s like to walk in their shoes. So BE KIND to everybody you see. 💙