Real Neat Blog Award

I’m speechless. Thank you so much to http://mind961.wordpress.com/ for nominating me for this award. I’m so thankful for this. Please go check out his blog!

Rules: 

  1. Put the award logo in your blog.
  2. Thank people who nominated you, linking them to your blog.
  3. Answer 7 questions asked by the person who nominated you.
  4. Nominate any number of bloggers you like, linking you to their blog.
  5. Let them know you nominated them.

Answers to Questions Asked

  1. Name your 3 favorite foods: Spaghetti, chicken, and pasta salad.
  2. Do you prefer watching sports or playing sports: Playing sports, being part of a team is so much fun.
  3. Would you chose a vacation in Hawaii or Alaska, why: Hawaii, because I love beaches and hot weather.
  4. If you would go back in time, what year would you travel to: 2015, it’s the year I met my boyfriend and one of my best friends. That’s the year my life got flipped upside down forever.
  5. What has been your biggest challenge: Learning how to love myself.
  6. Something you miss the most from childhood: Not caring about what people thought about me. These days everybody is so judgmental and it’s hard to deal with that.
  7. What does a perfect day look like to you: A day where all of my friends get along and we can all hangout just being kids having a good time… with food too.

Nominees are:

  1. https://lucky28blog.wordpress.com/
  2. https://phoebeonlinesite.wordpress.com/
  3. https://theeternallass.wordpress.com/
  4. https://nixondixonblog.wordpress.com/
  5. http://nerdylicious.blog/

Questions for the Nominees: 

  1. What are 3 things you love about yourself?
  2. What are your hobbies?
  3. What is your favorite thing to do to pass time?
  4. What is something you couldn’t live without?
  5. What’s something crazy you’ve done lately?
  6. Why do you love blogging?
  7. What is your favorite way to exercise?

Good luck to all of you!

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Liebster Award

Wow… all I can say is wow. This is the first award I have been nominated for on my blog. I’m completely speechless. When I started this blog I didn’t think it would become anything big, which to me my blog isn’t big but 58 followers is a lot in my head. I never thought people would like what I write about so much. So thank all of you who take time out of your day to read about my boring life!

Award Rules: 

  1. Acknowledge the blog who nominated you and display the award.
  2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger gives you.
  3. Give 11 random facts about yourself.
  4. Nominate 11 blogs.
  5. Notify those blogs of the nomination.
  6. Give them 11 questions to answer.

11 Questions Posed to me by On The Rocks 

  1. How would you describe yourself: quirky, charismatic, crazy, outgoing, hungry.
  2. What plans do you have for the immediate future: I’m just going to go wherever the wind takes me… take it one day at a time.
  3. How did you start your blog: I had been wanting to for awhile, but I was scared nobody would read it. Finally one day I swallowed my fear and dove in.
  4. What are your hobbies: walking, jumping on my trampoline, writing, eating constantly.
  5. Where do you see yourself in 10 years: I have absolutely no idea… Anything is possible.
  6. If you went digging and found a million dollars stacked away in a suitcase, what would you do with it: tell the police and if nobody claims it buy a new Camaro with the money.
  7. What do you do when or if you have anxiety: I walk around, listen to music, talk to my friends.
  8. What is your favorite movie or tv series: either Ghost Adventures or Dance Moms.
  9. What would you chose, writing, reading or watching something: writing.
  10. What was *the* craziest thing you ever did: I had my hand sticking out of the window when I was driving and caught a baby bird in my hand.
  11. What would your write if I told you to write about *the world* in 50 words: a place where people continuously destroy what God has given us to prosper. We need to work on rebuilding this earth instead of destroying it. It’s a beautiful place and needs to be kept nice. If we all work together instead of against one another this place could be amazing.

11 Random Facts About Me 

  1. I’m naturally very flexible.
  2. I have a very fast metabolism.
  3. My favorite color is blue.
  4. I would rather have blonde hair than my natural hair color which is brown.
  5. My best friend is a fire fighter and I’m really proud of him.
  6. All Time Low is my favorite band.
  7. I don’t have a sleeping schedule, I sleep whenever I’m tired.
  8. I’m addicted to coffee.
  9. Cats are my spirit animal.
  10. My favorite baseball team is the St. Louis Cardinals.
  11. My trampoline is my second home.

I Would Like to Nominate These People 

  1. https://blogwithella.wordpress.com/
  2. https://janetsrandomjournal.wordpress.com/
  3. https://inamessyworld.wordpress.com/
  4. https://mind961.wordpress.com/
  5. https://aginggracefullywithme.wordpress.com/
  6. http://pinkkrown.com/
  7. https://theeternallass.wordpress.com/
  8. https://kingandoj.wordpress.com/
  9. http://kayleemarieblog.com/
  10. http://simpleula.com/
  11. https://drunkencheeks.wordpress.com/

Questions for the Nominees 

  1. Who are you closest to in your family?
  2. What reason did you want to start blogging?
  3. What’s the one thing that makes you the happiest?
  4. If you had one wish that could be absolutely anything, what would it be?
  5. What do you like to do in your spare time?
  6. What’s your favorite meal to eat?
  7. What’s the one thing you couldn’t live without?
  8. What’s 4 adjectives you would describe yourself with?
  9. Have you ever been bullied and how did you deal with it?
  10. What’s your favorite sport to participate in?
  11. What’s 4 things that you love about yourself physically?

Thanks for everybody who participated in this! Let me know when you posted it! Big thank you to https://nixondixonblog.wordpress.com/ for nominating me for this.

Goals for June

Summer is fast approaching and that means I need to stop being lazy and get outside more…  wether it’s exercising or just being outside. I want to go on adventures, be with friends and just feel genuinely happy again. Winter takes the life out of me. It’s not my season at all. So I’ve made a list of things I want to accomplish in June.

  1. Take a walk everyday. Even if it’s just around the block. I want to get outside and walk everyday. Not because it’s exercise, it’s also therapeutic to me. I love walking around and listening to music. It clears my head and makes me feel a lot better about myself.
  2. Not eat as much junk food. Lately I’ve been guilty of eating an entire family size bag of cool ranch Doritos in less than 24 hours. Even though I didn’t gain weight I felt pretty crappy after. I need to stop doing that.
  3. Be more social. I’m the one who will sit inside all day and not make any interaction with my friends. If it wasn’t for Andrew I would never talk to anybody.
  4. Not get sunburnt. I’m tired of being a pale little white girl. I need to be out in the sun and tan so I don’t look like a ghost in all of my pictures haha. But I don’t want to turn into a lobster! I’m Irish so I burn wayyy to easily and I don’t like that. Every. Single. Year. I get burnt. This year I’m determined to just tan.
  5. Get my hair to grow more. My hair used to never ever grow, but since I’ve been taking hair skin & nail pills my hair has been so much healthier and growing more. (PRAISE JESUS!)
  6. Blog more! Right now I’m posting every Monday and Thursday. (yes, I know it’s Tuesday now. Memorial Day made me completely forget about my blog because I wasn’t home all day…. sorry!) I want to post more and be more active with everybody on here. We’ll see what I think of 😊.

Those are some of the things I want to accomplish in June. As long as I’m not eating a bag of Doritos a day I think I’ll reach all of these goals. See you guys Thursday!

xoxo ~Abby

Nocturnal Panic Attacks

I never knew it was possible to have a panic attack in your sleep. 

For the past week or so, I’ll be peacefully asleep and the next thing I know I’m being woken up because I’m having a panic attack. The first few nights it happened I didn’t really think much of it, but then it kept happening. Sometimes it’ll happen twice a night. After I get woken up from it I won’t be able to fall asleep for a few hours. I’ve lost a lot of sleep. It’s getting to the point where I’m scared to fall asleep for fear that I’ll have one.

It goes like this: I’ll fall asleep just like I always do, nothing out of the ordinary. Then an hour or two after I fall asleep I’ll get woken up from a panic attack. I’ll be covered in sweat, shaking, crying, heart racing, just like a normal panic attack but the only difference is that it starts while I’m sleeping. Honestly it feels 10 times worse than a normal panic attack.

I haven’t been doing anything differently… I’ve been eating regularly, taking care of myself, exercising and drinking the right amount of water each day. I haven’t had any reoccurring nightmare or anything like that. The only thing I could think of is my anxiety, but I’ve been dealing with anxiety for years now and I’ve never been waking up because of panic attacks before.

If any of you have experienced this let me know and what do you do to relax yourself when it happens? Also, how do you make it stop? I’m getting really tired of this continuing to happen.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Praying for Manchester

Such a terrible thing happened yesterday. In case you haven’t heard, there was a suicide bombing at an Ariana Grande concert last night in Manchester. At least 22 people have died and around 60 others are injured and many children are missing. Many of those who died were in their early teens. It has appeared to be a suicide bombing and the police think the Islamic states were responsible for this crisis.

A concert should be a place where people can feel safe and have a good time. To some, concerts are a persons favorite memory, or something they look forward to all year long. People shouldn’t feel scared to go see their favorite singer, musician or anything! I am very hurt and upset that there are people out there who would want to see children, families and people die. Good people who didn’t deserve to die. All they wanted to do was see one of their favorite singers perform.

I pray that all missing children are reunited with their families soon, all people who were injured recovery soon and that everybody who passed away from that attack are resting peacefully. God is with you all.

 

Source: The Washington Post 

 

Social Anxiety.

Social Anxiety: the fear of social situations that involve interaction with other people. 

Growing up I was always the shy kid who sat in the back of the room and observed everything. I did the least amount of talking possible that I had to do. Some people thought I was ‘stuck up’ or ‘too good’ to talk to others but in reality I just had social anxiety. 

I’ve always been a very, very shy person. I try to stay out of the spotlight and keep to myself as much as possible, only confiding in my few close friends. My anxiety never got really bad until I started high school. I get anxious over literally anything. I came from a pretty small school with the total number of kids averaging 230. Even then that was still a lot for me. I didn’t like being in group projects or having to associate myself with others because that’s what triggered my anxiety. I have a huge fear of people judging me, going behind my back, making fun of me… all that stuff. Sometimes it’s still hard to open up to even my closest friends knowing our pasts together. At times I feel like I have to keep everything to myself and bottle it up until I have a breakdown over it. I hate myself every time for not talking to somebody about it but when something else happens I don’t tell anybody. It’s all just one big circle.

Being around a lot of people at once physically and mentally drains me. Concerts, parties, ceremonies, or even hanging out with a bunch of my friends can give me anxiety. Even if I know everybody in the room I can still feel anxious if there’s a lot of people around. One time I spent an entire weekend around hundreds of people. That Monday I slept for 15 hours because I was so drained. If there’s an upcoming event where I know a bunch of people will be there I can’t sleep at night worrying about it.

Sometimes I feel like my anxiety controls my life. It prevents me from sleeping, eating, functioning normally and so much more. There have been times where I go days without sleep then my body finally caves in from being so mistreated. I know I should probably go to the doctor or see a therapist about it but I just never have. I don’t know why. I have my good days and bad days. When the bad days come it’s like a hurricane though. I’ve never really opened up to anybody about it because I feel like nobody will understand, but I know there’s others out there like me who have the same problems.

Disclaimer: this is how social anxiety effects me personally. Other people won’t experience the exact same type of social anxiety that I do. While others may have similar experiences to me there are many different types of social anxiety so no two people might deal with the same kind. These are just my stories. 

My Best Friend

Before I write this I just want to give her a HUGE congratulations on having her first baby! I’m so proud of her and how far she’s come. She’s going to be a great mother.

I have two close people in my life who I consider my best friend, but one person stands out more. One person who knows me better than I know myself. I swear she can read my mind and know how I feel before I even know. We’re not only best friends, we’re sisters. And telepathetic.

Oh lord where do I start…. well, we’ve known each other for about 6 years. That’s a long time dealing with each other Every. Single. Day. I don’t know how we haven’t killed each other yet… or died from all of the stupid things we’ve done. We’ve known each other since we were little. I think we were 5 when we first met at our Uncle Doc’s (we aren’t related we just call our dad’s friend Uncle because he was like an uncle to both of us).  So although we had first met then we didn’t become friends until the summer of freshman year because we went to different schools up until then. But when we did become friends all hell broke loose.

Here’s some of the memories we’ve had:

  1. I knew she was sad so I kept making these horrendous noises until she got so annoyed she started to yell at me then started laughing when I bounced my head off the window.
  2. She was on crutches once and I had never used crutches before so I tried them… I fell and bashed my face into my wall. (Probably why I’m so ugly)
  3. We tried to make cookies but they ended up turning into a giant ball of cookie… I still don’t know how we managed that one.
  4. We stayed up all night once and tried to function the next day but couldn’t stand up from a chair to save our lives.
  5. We were driving around and we both had our arms out the window and I caught a bird in my hand.
  6. Every time we hangout we drive by one of our friend’s house and honk because it makes him mad.
  7. We got mad at each other once and we both punched each other in the arm, then we tried to play it off like it didn’t hurt. We both turned around, grabbed our arms and gasped. We noticed we both did the same thing and laughed. Everybody thought we were crazy, which we are.
  8. We were walking around town and she was texting and almost walked out into the highway. I had to scream her name and pull her out of the highway before she got killed by a semi.
  9. Another time we were walking I stepped off a ledge when I wasn’t paying attention and thought I was stepping off a cliff. I proceeded to have a mental breakdown while she yelled at me in front of everybody.

Those are only a few of the stupid, dumb and dangerous things we’ve done together. We were probably the most annoying friend duo there was. We didn’t care though because we were having fun. We can never be mad at each other for more than 5 minutes because we had to gossip to each other. We’ve always had each others backs no matter what. She is the strongest girl I know. She can fight through anything that gets thrown at her and comes out even stronger. She’ll always be my best friend and I love her to death.

Tell me some memories you have with your best friend in the comments! 😃❤️

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13 Reasons Why Challenge

I’ll be honest, I’ve never seen this movie before and I barely know what it’s about. All I know is that it’s about a girl who killed herself and somewhere in the movie there’s 13 reasons of something in it (somebody let me know what it’s about in the comments). I might be wrong but that’s what I’ve heard. Now there’s a challenge going around where you write down 13 reasons why you’re thankful to be alive. This one hits home to me because I do know people who have taken their lives. Nobody should end it that way. There is always somebody out there you can reach out to no matter how hard life gets. If anybody feels this way DO NOT be afraid to ask for help. Don’t hesitate to email me if you need to let things off your chest. Anyway, I thought this would be really fun to do so here we go!

  1. My family – I’m blessed with a huge family and I know they’re always there if I need them. I have the best parents in the world. My dad flipped his life upside down just to make sure I had the best life possible and he succeeded. He’s so supportive of everything I do and I can tell him anything. He’s made sure I had everything I needed and some.
  2. My friends – I don’t have a lot of friends but the ones I do have mean the world to me. I don’t know where I would be without them. They support me and stand by my side through everything. Not a day goes by where I don’t feel alone. When I’m down they can pick me up in a matter of minutes (by bringing me food 😊).
  3. My boyfriend – he has been there every single day for the past year and 8 months. He’s always made sure I was ok. I can tell him anything like all the gossip I know (men don’t listen or care about your girl drama so you know they won’t tell anybody).
  4. My metabolism – I once had McDonald’s everyday for a week straight and didn’t gain a single pound. I can eat all the junk food I want and not gain weight, I’ll actually loose weight because my metabolism is so
    hyperactive. Go me!
  5. The town I live in – it’s small but beautiful. You can walk from one side to the other in less than an hour. Nothing ever happens here… it’s so relaxed and that’s what I like. Not too many people like in a big city.
  6. My room – I love my room. It’s my sanctuary when I want to get away from everybody. I don’t have any siblings to share my room with. Plus I have a big flatscreen to watch tv on, a very comfy bed, and two spinny chairs. I love spinny chairs.
  7. Trees – I don’t know what it is that makes me love trees so much… I just love the way they grow over the years and the way the change colors each year according to the season. Seeing the trees blossom in the spring makes me beyond happy. Also seeing the beautiful colors they make in the fall takes the words out of my mouth.
  8. My laptop – the fact that I can use this portable, rectangular device to connect with people all of the world blows my mind.
  9. Natural flexibility – I love being so naturally flexible because I rarely ever get sore.
  10. This blog – Being able to tell a bunch of people my stories, experiences and help others all over the world is beyond amazing.
  11. Candles – candles are my obsession… I’ll spend hours walking around stores
    smelling all the candles and buying every one I see.
  12. God – God is always there every single second of everyday. If you listen to him and trust him he’ll guide you through life
  13. My confidence – it’s taken me years to learn how to be confident with the body god gave me and finally I am. I have good days and bad days but the good days come around a lot more often than the bad days.

I challenge everyone who reads this to come up with 13 things you’re thankful for!

What Happens When the Power Goes Out

First off, I HATE storms. Actually… hate is an understatement. I get so much anxiety from hearing thunder and seeing lightning, especially at night. So when a storm makes the power go out, I freak out.  It doesn’t help that I live in the midwest next to or in tornado alley. Spring is my favorite time of year but also my least favorite. I love spring because it’s a sign summer is coming but I hate it because it brings severe weather and tornado season.

Yesterday there was a severe thunderstorm that came out of nowhere. It was nice and sunny in the morning but in the afternoon the storms started getting closer. I didn’t think much of it but around 6 there was a big flash of lightning then the power went out. At first I was scared and freaking out, but then I got really irritated and mad (I wanted to use wifi and eat).

The storm didn’t last long after that. Andrew and I ended up driving around looking at what ditches and yards started flooding… AGAIN. It started to get dark and the power still wasn’t back on. Then we realized that Brimfield looks really creepy without power at night. What is normally all lit up and cars everywhere was dark and abandoned. I was really creeped out. So we went to Peoria where there were lights, people and it wasn’t as creepy. We came back right as the power came back on.

Just another day in my life 

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Inconsiderate People.

Over the weekend my boyfriend Andrew and I were in Peoria getting a few things from Walmart. On our way home we stopped at McDonald’s to get something to eat. Nothing out of the ordinary… just a normal Friday night for us. On our way back I saw something that made me think a million different things.

In the middle of an intersection there was a head on crash between a truck and a car. From what I saw, there was an older couple in the truck and a mom with a few kids in the car. Glass and vehicle parts were all over the road. The mom with her kids all seemed to be fine, the kids were sitting on the side of the road on their phones and tablets looking unfazed while the mom paced back and forth. The older couple in the truck looked like they were stuck. It looked like the air bags had gone off and the front of the truck was mangled and smoking. Police and firefighters ran over to them and started to pry the doors open to get them out. As far as I know, everybody is ok, no serious injuries that I’ve heard of.

It was a fairly busy time of the day. A lot of people were going out to eat or trying to get home after a long day of work. With an accident that big traffic was going to slow down to avoid the scene of the accident. Most people these days only care about getting home as fast as they can to enjoy their Friday night. They only care about themselves which I cannot stand. As we were going 5 mph in a 35 people were getting angry. Horns were honking and people were getting impatient because they wanted to hurry up and get to where they were going. It didn’t seem like they really cared that there was an accident or somebody could be hurt or even dead. Inconsiderate. 

We passed the accident and made it back home. I spent the rest of the night thinking about how cruel this world actually is. People have a hard time giving up something so little like a few minutes to slow down for an accident where somebody needs assistance. I know all people aren’t like this but a lot are and that needs to change if we want this world to become a better place. It’s not hard to do one nice thing a day, wether its giving somebody a compliment, donating something for somebody in need or sparing a few minutes out of your day to let a medical team assist people who could be hurt. If it was you in that accident I bet you would want people to be a little more considerate too. With that being said, I challenge everybody who reads this to do one nice thing a day. 

That was my rant for the day, thanks for reading!