A Look Through An Introvert’s Eyes

Shy

All my life I’ve been an introvert. I had a very small group of friends in high school whom I trusted and felt comfortable around. I went to the high school in my hometown which was small. All four years I went there the average number of kids in the building was about 230. I only had about 50 kids in my class. The amount of students in the classroom ranged from five to about 25. It wasn’t bad, but to an introvert like me it was like being surrounded by a sea of people. Since it was such a small school, everybody knew everybody.

Ever since Pre-K I was shy. I wouldn’t talk much and nobody really talked to me. I didn’t mind it though. I liked being along with my thoughts. In high school I would talk to my few close friends everyday. I didn’t really talk to anybody else unless I absolutely had to. I sat on the sidelines and watched everybody from a distance. I never got invited to parties, but I didn’t mind that. I would rather sit at home or hangout with a few close friends than go to a party where I don’t know many people. Now that I’m out of high school I don’t talk to many people at all. I have my friends but I don’t keep up with pretty much anybody who was in my class.

I’m the type of introvert where being around a lot of people physically and mentally wears me out. I can go to a party where I know everybody but at the end of the night be so physically drained that I need to take the next day to be completely alone and have my thoughts to myself. During that time I like to go on walks around town and listen to music to clear my head. Sometimes it’s easy to deal with and other times it’s not. It all depends on how I’m feeling that day. My anxiety has a lot to do with it too. I try to make do with the situation I’m in but sometimes it gets to be a little too much. There have been times where I have to go stand in a different room from everybody for a few minutes to collect my thoughts and calm myself down.

Introvert

Although I deal with this on a daily basis. It doesn’t stop me from having fun. I just have fun in a different way than most teenagers do. I consider myself to be different than most people my age. I want to get this out to tell others who have the same issues that they aren’t alone. No matter how many times you think you’re the only one, you aren’t. Others go through the same thing. Sometimes it’s easier to talk to another person who understands what it’s like, than to talk to an extrovert who has absolutely no idea what you’re talking about. I hope others who don’t know what it’s like to feel this way have a new understanding of people who do have these problems, If any of you feel this way and feel like you need somebody to talk to, you can always talk to me.

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18 thoughts on “A Look Through An Introvert’s Eyes”

  1. My own disposition is very similar. I can really relate to this post! It took me a long time to understand how to work with it effectively and that it does not hinder me from doing what I want to do. I just have to figure out my own way.

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  2. Wow- this was super interesting to read! As downtown with anxiety, I get uncomfortable in certain social situations, but I didn’t realise that introverts actually experience similar things! Really well written!

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  3. Hi,
    I consider myself introverted too. I’m good with a word processor but weak in person. I once blogged about introverts. I was attacked online, like people thought introverts didn’t exist or something.
    I met you at Danny Ray’s Meet and Greet. That was nice of you to reblog his blog party. Maybe you can check out my blog if you need any blogging tips. That’s what I write about. I also host 10 networking events each month including two Meet and Greets like Danny.
    Janice

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  4. I love this… that’s exactly my life. I thought I was the only one who goes through this… I remember when I was in high school my headphones were always in my ears. I actually sat in the art hallway by myself during lunch time. I feel like being surrounded by people’s makes me sick. And what’s worse is the thought of seeing these friends take advantage of my behavior and use it against me. It’s very true those who never have experienced this will never understand us. No matter how many years you’ve known them.

    You are perfect. Never change!

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    1. haha I didn’t mind not getting invited to parties because I don’t drink, smoke or do drugs. I don’t even like being near all that stuff. I know, I’m weird. A 19 year old girl doesn’t like getting wasted and not being able to remember the next day. I’d much rather be with a few close friends and go bowling or something else.

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      1. Well, that’s interesting but since I am residing in Asia (and since my country is slightly conservative) the party I am talking about is just hanging out with a couple of food, drinks, and fake people (minus the drugs). Have a nice day ahead!

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